Thursday, January 04, 2007
2 months since keith died. not for me. less for me, but today bad.
i know i have been blessed in ways, but it sure seems like i have been dumped on by god for too many fucking years, although the last 3 had been sweeter as keith and i got closer. last year was bittersweet by innocent mistakes i made and his sorry history with other women. but this year was going to be the best and now......i don't know how i am going to handle...the future looks empty.
or just the same as it ever was. empty
i know i have been blessed in ways, but it sure seems like i have been dumped on by god for too many fucking years, although the last 3 had been sweeter as keith and i got closer. last year was bittersweet by innocent mistakes i made and his sorry history with other women. but this year was going to be the best and now......i don't know how i am going to handle...the future looks empty.
or just the same as it ever was. empty
