Friday, December 08, 2006
sigh. i was stupid. i flipped channels during commercials and hit the new pride & predudice. a book i have read several times and relates too close to me and keith and dammit, i see a bit of him in the new 'darcy', but bingley's eyes were sloser to keith's. and god. been crying aain. for what didn't get to be and what we had.
i did clinton again the next year. no keith, that tall potter. oh darn. oh, i have his card, i will write him a letter and ask if he is gonna be in WI. and so i did. keith wrote me back. will be in baraboo and green bay. sarah and i drive up to baraboo. very nice day. she of course hugs him. i'm reserved. i sit and chat.
that was our 3rd meeting.
later, sarah says. he likes you.
what?
i think that year if i remember riht. i am in the green bay show. i go and see his stuff. he comes over, but sarah said he likes me and i get horribly shy. i do shake his hand. he has such a big hand. and i am semi-proud of my handshake.
when did i start writting him and he back? i don't know, but i got to know him in letters, i of course sent way more. maybe that year he told me his youngest had cancer. at that time, because of that he had nice grey hair at the temples. i adore grey hair.
his son recovered and somewhere around then his marriage disolved. i suppose the latters came after the divorce.
God i miss him. it just isn't fair. not fucking fair.....
i did clinton again the next year. no keith, that tall potter. oh darn. oh, i have his card, i will write him a letter and ask if he is gonna be in WI. and so i did. keith wrote me back. will be in baraboo and green bay. sarah and i drive up to baraboo. very nice day. she of course hugs him. i'm reserved. i sit and chat.
that was our 3rd meeting.
later, sarah says. he likes you.
what?
i think that year if i remember riht. i am in the green bay show. i go and see his stuff. he comes over, but sarah said he likes me and i get horribly shy. i do shake his hand. he has such a big hand. and i am semi-proud of my handshake.
when did i start writting him and he back? i don't know, but i got to know him in letters, i of course sent way more. maybe that year he told me his youngest had cancer. at that time, because of that he had nice grey hair at the temples. i adore grey hair.
his son recovered and somewhere around then his marriage disolved. i suppose the latters came after the divorce.
God i miss him. it just isn't fair. not fucking fair.....
